On my own
No one heard me scream about those things I’d made unless in a situation I’m trap. As much as possible I don’t want anyone to see me as weak as the real me. Pretender but I do have valid reason why to do so. Hearing her asked that question made me asked myself ‘saan na ba talaga ako nakapunta? Did those places and experiences made me know myself?’
I don’t know the real reason of this word’s existence. Hard cause I never had felt real one happiness. Incomplete and unsatisfied. Imperfect and weak.
Simple lang ang gusto ko, ang mapasaya kayo through my simple thoughts and action’s of appreciation. I really don’t need anything from you but a solid trust and a little bit care that comes from your heart. Minsan nakalungkot isipin na kulang ako but at one part I realize being complete is never a solution. Kung issue ng pagiging kontento ang pag-uusapan I’m so vocal about the fact that I’m really contented in terms of existence and blessings. I don’t intend to ask GOD’S power and decision.
Looking back, trying to answer the question ‘saan na ba ako nakapunta’, I’m a simple girl with unique existence (because I have my twin sister) dreamed big about future. Remembering those times I talk about who’ll going to me ten years from now make me laugh about dreams are sometimes unreachable. Dreams do changes. Dreams come to priorities. Sad memories, uneven situation, lonely times and other realities in life I’d prove to be one of life’s ingredients. Crying serves to my other half, and up to now I really to don’t get the reason of crying knowing nothing will change. I hate myself for making those questions an issue. I hate knowing I really have to face the TRUTH.TRUTH will never change unless I have accepted those painful dreams. Mahirap but I need to. Hindi literal ang paglalarawan ko ng dami ng napuntahan ko pero remembering those places with my so-called treasures is one part of my life I called blessings.
‘Ano ba talaga ang gusto ko?’, a question keep bouncing inside my ears. I don’t know! Funny no? Hindi ko talaga alam. One thing is for sure, I wanna be successful! I wanna help and be an inspiration. I wanna be better person and good for everyone. Magulo no? What to do? I can’t figure out the thing I WANT. What makes me happy, satisfy and proud. Maybe I’ll take the need one on my priorities.
I’m blessed with so much in life. The fact that I’m still surviving despite blank wants and undirected target, there’s something in store for me out there. It’s not now, maybe tomorrow.
I’m blessed with so much in life. The fact that I’m still surviving despite blank wants and undirected target, there’s something in store for me out there. It’s not now, maybe tomorrow.
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