reminiscing 4th year highschool

an article about the winning mascara festival won by of course SENIORS

this time everyone doing tribute for our batch and no one did it best but only the editor in chief of the school's newspaper.hahah nice lian

i'm not surprise when george also did one in tagalog version. di ba halatang mahal niya ung batch?

-guys namimis ko lang kayo hahaha. nakita lang ni mama yung newspaper then i read it tapos naalalo ko ung mga moments na magsesay goodbye na sa usual routine at company ng isa't isa.huhuhu DRAMA

what do you think?

hai summer was been boring... it's like this: wake up aroung 10 am, eat, watch tv or surf net, eat, play infront of the computer,eat then watch until 10pm then read book. pretty boring right?

nagkwekwentuhan about my college life, i've been vocal about the fact na mahirap. i even try making them feel na i'm not happy which is true right? But i think it's not effective. my dad doing a reverse psychological. he keep saying that pagsak na raw ako kung siya ung maggregrade sakin hoping i get challenge but unfortunately i'm not challenge at any point. i told my mom that i'm not challenge when people trying to put me down. i even get depress. then she told me that my dad felt about it and their laughing about it. well i think i got no choice right?

i'll gonna read this one over and over

"I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough."Nicholas Sparks( The Notebook)

“When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny.”-Paolo Coelho

“Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking, the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need.” -Meredith grey(greys Anatomy)

"Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you’re not really losing it. You’re just passing it on to someone else." -Mitch Albom(The five people you meet in heaven)

"You can't live your life for other people. You've got to do what's right for you, even if it hurts some people you love. " -Nicholas Sparks(The Notebook)

"You can become blind by seeing each day as a similar one. Each day is a different one, each day brings a miracle of its own. It's just a matter of paying attention to this miracle."-Paolo Coelho

"I don’t need those things to make me happy. A nice quiet place to unwind at the end of the day, beautiful views, a few good friends. What else is there? "-Nicholas Sparks(On a Bended Road)

"All battles in life serve to teach us something, even the battles we lose."-Paolo Coelho

"Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them too even when you're in the dark. Even when you're falling."-Mitch Albom(Tuesday with Morrie)

"When you know that language, it's easy to believe that someone in the world awaits you, whether it's in the middle of the desert or in some great city... without such love, one's dreams would have no meaning."-Paulo Coelho

"This is what we call love. When you are loved, you can do anything in creation. When you are loved, there's no need at all to understand what's happening, because everything happens within you." -Paolo Coelho

why i can't have my own choice

two years in college and about to to go to my third year stage, and to tell everyone honestly i'm not happy. i can't have my own choice. why? simply because i value my mom and dad's feeling. I know for the fact na he saw his dreams on me. yah i'm trap between my happiness and his happiness. well it's my only way to give back what they gave me. i dno't have any choice. haaai

I'm hoping to finish architecture smoothly enough to do what i really want to do despite the fact na my plans are already ruin. i love them thats why i have to give up my own happiness. i'm trying my best to exert more effort.

I have to get stronger than yesterday to be able to do my obligation as a daughter and sister and a friend to everyone. guys i love you so much.

I can't be everyone for someone

I wish i'm more than a girl who loves and learn. I wish i can offer more than my sincere appreciation and honest feelings. I hope i can love everyone but one.

Despite the fact that i can't be the best of both world, i'm still here, perfectly living my life to look for my purpose. I may fail someone for not being the best of what i can be but i'm still willing to continue this so-called journey.

I learned a lot from simple things to much complicated one. I've learn to get stronger than yesterday. I might killed by those painful goodbyes and lost but look how i become better everyday. Some may know me for being the complicated person in this world still friends and family stay by my side, through the happiest and saddest part. I might find going on hard still i opt to take a deep breathe and step forward. Sometimes, i find myself unworthy to exist but GOD manage to send me the best reason to wake up. Problems are not the real issue in this world, It's US, who think like we don't get use to feel tired. I cry enough to feel weak. I shout to feel free. I laugh too loud to feel endless happiness. I wanna put things on one corner for me to feel secure yet i don't feel at ease.

I get use to think fairy tales do happen in real world but sometimes i gives up the idea of happily ever after. Letting go, giving my fair goodbye and accepting the truth about temporary hurts me and made me stop to win battles. I hate loving every single things knowing someday i might lost them. Afraid of simple purpose that affects my whole reason of existence. I'm afraid of getting use to and later on feel alone. I can't escape from harsh reality of losing and falling that reminds me that loving was the sweetest mistakes.

I can't assure things will remain the same. I won't let myself hurt by those false belief. I won't give up the idea of loving because despite the truth of being temporary the feeling of experiencing it won't pay anything. I'm going to lessen the times i look back because i believe i have something ahead.

my pretty boring summer 08

things just run too fast without minding what happen the day before. reading stuffs just to let my boring world pass by. Hai what else to do right?

I miss doing something yet when i'm into my busy routines i felt not doing anything but stare. every people around me asking what happen after how many years considering it's been a while since the last time they saw me. Yet something stay, they look at me as a little girl not knowing i'm no longer a kid not a lady but i'm a girl who's about to turn 19. a girl who's been partially independent on her own. hai bakit ganoon? di ba akong mukhang matured(in sense na tipong someone who don't need somebody to decide). Dahil maliit ako? hahaha well kidding aside, guys i'm about to say goodbye to being a teen, i'm no longer that shy kid that everyone thought a Princess. I'm not the ONE i'm just ordinary, as odinary as everyone in this world.

Boring summer... nakakainip na talga. what else to do ba? mag aral as the first plan? parang walang sense yun! di ko na type mag aral sawang sawa na ako.... hahaha surf net for how many hours? hay kasawa na rin kung minsan i don't find things so exciting this past few days. i miss george and lian. of course i miss baby so much and my best ever one bebe. hai miss ko na kayo talaga. anong magandang gawin? though minsan nagkakatext kami ni baby pero syempre iba parin ung magkasama kayo doing nothing....hahah yung mga all night kwentuhan namin nila bebe of different personality or our different ideas.haha hay ang boring ng mundo. ang boring mabuhay. anong masayang gawin? try ko kayang matulog magdamag? haha mamatay na lang kaya(hahaha)? ay hindi try sports? cno naman kalaro ko? hay naku ang boring na talaga. pagtyatyagaan ko na lang ung usual routine ko di naman na mauulit ang mga ganitong pagkakataon. it's a price to grab right?