I can't be everyone for someone

I wish i'm more than a girl who loves and learn. I wish i can offer more than my sincere appreciation and honest feelings. I hope i can love everyone but one.

Despite the fact that i can't be the best of both world, i'm still here, perfectly living my life to look for my purpose. I may fail someone for not being the best of what i can be but i'm still willing to continue this so-called journey.

I learned a lot from simple things to much complicated one. I've learn to get stronger than yesterday. I might killed by those painful goodbyes and lost but look how i become better everyday. Some may know me for being the complicated person in this world still friends and family stay by my side, through the happiest and saddest part. I might find going on hard still i opt to take a deep breathe and step forward. Sometimes, i find myself unworthy to exist but GOD manage to send me the best reason to wake up. Problems are not the real issue in this world, It's US, who think like we don't get use to feel tired. I cry enough to feel weak. I shout to feel free. I laugh too loud to feel endless happiness. I wanna put things on one corner for me to feel secure yet i don't feel at ease.

I get use to think fairy tales do happen in real world but sometimes i gives up the idea of happily ever after. Letting go, giving my fair goodbye and accepting the truth about temporary hurts me and made me stop to win battles. I hate loving every single things knowing someday i might lost them. Afraid of simple purpose that affects my whole reason of existence. I'm afraid of getting use to and later on feel alone. I can't escape from harsh reality of losing and falling that reminds me that loving was the sweetest mistakes.

I can't assure things will remain the same. I won't let myself hurt by those false belief. I won't give up the idea of loving because despite the truth of being temporary the feeling of experiencing it won't pay anything. I'm going to lessen the times i look back because i believe i have something ahead.