I'm more than no body

'JUST DO IT'

This nike ad keep bouncing inside my ears. It's like describing how my life goes in a process. Ang sakit isipin na ang buhay ko ay mas matamlay pa sa matamlay. Sometimes I just convince myself about truth like how okay naman lahat eh. Masaya naman ako having every people who really mean their stay in my life. Nothing to ask.

I'm a nobody unless you intend to have your part in my ride. I never demand so much in my stay, just love me enough is really appreciated. Simpleng mundong kasama ang mahahalagang tao sa buhay ko. I'm simply dreaming a fairy tale knowing it have endings i'm very willing to start my once upon a time. Love hurt, yes it's true, especially to someone who never felt loving them back. We deserve best not because you did best but because god made us to be someone's best.

i'm ready to commit. But learning how ready i am is equally nervous of being into it's reality. Ang gulo ko right? Well wala namang malinaw sa mundong ito eh. At least i'm being honest sa pagiging human being ko. Takot akong masaktan tapos ang huling kakampi ko'y pag-iyak. Ayokong masaktan lalo na't marami na akong nakitang umiyak sa harapan ko sa maling rason. I hate to see myself doing their mistakes or worst doing more than what they did.

'We're destined for someone'

It's like putting hope that later on becomes your most hated hope. Para saan pa ang umasa kung tanggap mo na ang mag-isa. Minsan kasi we try to believe something but finds ourselves tired of believing that ends up to be one of life's lie. Okay naman na ako loving myself eh pero bakit hindi ako contented? Parang ewan e, nakakainis naman maging tao, we tend to complicate things na okay naman. Mamamahalin ka nga pero sa huli mag-iisa ka rin. Alam naman na natin pero still we die to love kasi gusto nating minsang sumaya. Para saan pa ang sumaya kung iiyak ka rin sa huli. For the sake of memories? Ano yon pakonswelo? parang souvenir galing sa masayang event. Isang kantang magpapaala kung gaano ka naging masaya at gaano ka nasaktan ng higit pa sa inaakala mo. Ayoko na ngang isipin sumaya. Parang isang pag-asang sa bandang huli'y kakalimutan ang pagdating ko. I can't have everything... Bakit kaya? Kasi i'm just me? So what? Do i need to be everybody where i just want to have is something simple yet i felt perfect.

I still believe in fairy tale, the story that lives happily ever after. Convincing myself that life is like what we imagine that despite its realistic view magic still possible. Dreaming like there'll never be tomorrow. I simply want to love but demanding for a love in return. I'm tired of giving what i can without receiving what i think is i deserve. Everyone deserves a life of paradise, a life of what they exactly wish, a life with someone close to perfect. Perfect doesn't describe impossible, for me perfect is being true to his being imperfect. Someone who's willing to learn and share. A person who simply love and appreciate. I can't be perfect, far to being ideal and never been someone's dream. I'm just a girl, wanting to feel god's creature and believes to my own fairy tale.