my prayer

Dear GOD,

I've been blessed with so much in my life. I constantly express how thankful i am about every little things that you shared to me. Though sometimes i felt unworthy having everything, i continuously try my best to be worthy. Having the people who love me really mean to me. They've been my inspiration, strength, and reason. Though sometimes i hate them for loving me too much that sometimes i felt i'm not trusted into something i'm into, at the end of the day i simply see the challenge to prove what i believe. As i grow up, my parents respect my ability to decide which makes me feel proud. But later on, one issue made me think about their trust. I've been vocal about not enjoying the chosen field. I gather my strength to tell the feeling straight to my mom and dad. The result made me felt more depress for learning that they fully trust me and believe me to finish the field i'm persuing. I admit the fact that it's my fault because i let them believe something right now i can't grant. Being happy in something really mean to me in terms of choosing. I thought i still can but as months go on i learn about what i really want to be. Being able to study outside the country was been the greatest dream remembering that it's my main reason why i want to study in manila to prepare myself. I keep telling my mom and dad how badly i want to go abroad to study since my aunt is been willing to support and help me. I'm just asking for 3 yrs away from them. During summer vacation, my dad seems to be curious about what i'll be taking when i'll go to australia, without thinking twice i happily answered, 'graphic design'. I can say daddy will be willing to support me only if mama will be convince to leave what i had started here and allow me to start everything outside the country. I keep telling them i'm willing to sacrifice as always. I keep crossing my fingers for a future realization of my mama and daddy in an issue that later on can change my life. I'm hoping. I'll keep on praying for their decision. I know that you're not just putting me in a situation where i can't have everything despite i'm going to fail. I know i can make things possitive because i believe in you. You've been my great mentor, the first person who believes in me in everything. Thanks for everything. For making me strong after storm, for making me brave after i lost, for making me better after crying. I failed you too many times but i believe i made you proud for so many reasons. Thanks for giving me each day to prove.